Hmmn.....

Ranging from the multiple jobs to the innumerable personal and Professional decisions i have taken, on hindsight i feel amazed at some and critical at others.

I often find myself asking these qs....
When i dont like a person - why dont i say "Buzz Off" instead of offering a broad smile ?
Why do i not say when i see something wrong happening in front of me ?
Why is all my darkest feeling left to my personal diary ?

I would give anything to be inside my brain and understand why i do certain things - how much of the decision making is because of my fears/insecurities/sense of bravado/values?

Would knowing this help me be a more confident individual - Hell Yeah!!! For this i would need that someone who would chaff the right from the wrong and put it in easy-to-comprehend manner for me. But then some part of me has to play the role of "someone".
It sounds like i should be able to react to the situation as well as look at myself objectively at the same time. Hmmn.....
Sounds like Tendulkar *watching* himself *play* that magical innings in sharjah against australia and come up with a better inning.

Just Verdict ?? Where

Just today i happened to read the news that the verdict was delivered in the "Jessica Lal" case where the *suspect* got let off due to insufficient evidence and witnesses turning hostile.
Was the Verdict Just ??

This case has been on and off the news for the past 6 years or so and there have been some prominent socialites, Politicians and their sons involved in it as well. From the articles i have read, there doesnt seem to be an iota of doubt in the fact that the *suspect* was the Murderer, but somehow the judiciary would best allow the case to be dragged for a long period - thus providing ample scope for the witnesses to turn hostile and evidence to disappear.

What does it say to the common man out there ?
If you are strong and foolish enough to go out in the world and commit a heinous crime as taking someone's life and have enough Money and Political Clout, you can not only get away with it but as in the instances of some movie stars, repeat the mistake again.
The Common rightful man out there also gets the depressing thought that the laws are not just fair and are different for different strata of society.

But then, I guess in this world of manipulated verdict's we would have to seek solace in what my mum says - somewhere out there GOD watches everyone and keeps a track of the gud and the bad and accounts for it.

I pray and hope he keeps his verdict JUST.

Rang De Basanti

DVD/VCD Craze coupled with rising costs of the Movie tickets( and not to forget my ever rising levels of laziness ) contributed to my break from the Cinema halls for a period of 6 odd Months.

So 18th of February was the day and Rex Theatre in Bangalore was the place where i broke my self imposed exile. With Aamir Khan in the star cast, I walked in with an expectation of being entertained and Entertained i was. The First Half was Fun, fast-paced, slick. DJ's wise cracks and Sukhi's histrionics were really entertaining. The Director - Rakyesh stuck to outlining the plots and letting the crowds warm up to the actors. Some of the locations were truly out of the world - Eg: the Paatshala location - Rakeysh, Is that a location in Delhi and if yes, please guide me on how i can reach there. The Songs are a great addition to the movie and so is Alice patten as Sue.

The 2nd half was when i truly got "Rang De"d ( coloured ) in the Director's intent.
I really did feel the proverbial "lump in the throat" when the scene of Office Ajay Rathore's ( Madhavan's ) death is broken. Aamir's breakdown in the subsequent scenes was really amazing ...( He doesnt say much, but he conveys a lot - Now thats acting ). Even the otherwise noisy/crying kids somehow knew this was a scene/moment to savour and there was absolute silence all around the theatre.

I would have liked a more happy ending, but there was some part of me which "Romanticized with the past" and admired the ending ( Especially the part where they show the similarity in the death of the Freedom Fighters of the past and the Present ).

I can only guess that the Director truly wanted each and every one of the audience to leave the theatre with a sense of patriotic feeling in him and wanting to contribute and make the country a better place and hence the name - Rang de basanti.