Hmmn.....

Ranging from the multiple jobs to the innumerable personal and Professional decisions i have taken, on hindsight i feel amazed at some and critical at others.

I often find myself asking these qs....
When i dont like a person - why dont i say "Buzz Off" instead of offering a broad smile ?
Why do i not say when i see something wrong happening in front of me ?
Why is all my darkest feeling left to my personal diary ?

I would give anything to be inside my brain and understand why i do certain things - how much of the decision making is because of my fears/insecurities/sense of bravado/values?

Would knowing this help me be a more confident individual - Hell Yeah!!! For this i would need that someone who would chaff the right from the wrong and put it in easy-to-comprehend manner for me. But then some part of me has to play the role of "someone".
It sounds like i should be able to react to the situation as well as look at myself objectively at the same time. Hmmn.....
Sounds like Tendulkar *watching* himself *play* that magical innings in sharjah against australia and come up with a better inning.